I don't want to use the solution to my school problems. I need to convince myself. What to do?

do you want to change or not? I can see that you want to change but if you want to do that they you must make yourself change and not just whine everyday. It would be much more fun for you if you can get over it, think of it that way. If you keep on stressing about it then you wouldn't be happy and no one else will so just relax and get over it. ok?